Summer.

I don't honestly remember when this particular season has ever felt utterly relaxing and refreshing to the point I feel nothing but joy and pure careless bliss. I don't, do you? Me neither. Anyways.

I'm back... ish. Sort of. I still have some music commissions ongoing, but I've been taking my time thinking about my projects and any possible comeback tracks here. Despite experiencing a bit of creative burnout, it's been largely a time of experimentation and self-reflection for me. I've been trying to understand what kind of output feels the most "genuine" to me, and I'm referring to my own musical output.

When I look at some of my "cinematic" tracks, I feel as if they've reached the point of stylistic stagnation. Too standardized. In my eyes, the "cinematic" trailer-like genre as a whole has become a dead weight. The carcass of a glorified musical ready-made. It has never really felt mine enough. If there's something I really stress myself during production is genuinity. I need to be honest with myself before even opening my DAW. It's not just feeling a certain emotion or being in a certain mindset. Rather, it's one flow, it's one conscious. It's energy. In that moment, music is my language. I am one with the music I feel from deep within.

At least, in theory. I think genuinity also brings a level of uniqueness to one's creative work. I often find myself admiring musicians who are dedicating or have dedicated their lives to their craft, not conforming to standards and following their own brand of daring, at times challenging approach to music. It's what makes them an evergreen example in my mind of how individual creative freedom should be expressed. Enough with standards, enough with genres, enough with overproduction, enough with "functional" music, enough with these narrow-minded one-liner definitions. Music is music. Sound is sound. It doesn't come from anything but ourselves.

Woo, I'm rambling again. It's late, I'm off to bed.

Ciao~