I think you may be indeed impatient.
That is not uncommon on people with a big passion for what they do.
Please allow me to tell you a bit about my self.
When I say I've been doing music for a long time, I mean a loooong time, around 15 years (I'm not a youngster anymore). It's been quite a journey to get where I stand now, and even if it isn't much, I've never felt defeated. Same as you, a lot of times I've felt stagnant, apathetic or simply wondering : What for ?
Over the years I've realized that life has its own pace, leaves no one behind, but also, waits for nobody. Some things will happen, some others won't, all we can do is being there to see it.
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Maybe you're right, though on second thought, it's not even a matter of how long I've been doing things compared to what I've been delivering. 7 years is still quite a long time and many things have happened in between, so I think it's almost legitimate to yearn for something a little bit different than the usual. I've been wanting to bring out expression more rather than simply making things for a living, which is what I've been doing. You know? Quality over quantity.
So, I don't think I am being impatient because in 7 years a lot can be accomplished, and I did so. Maybe my mind just tends to race at a faster pace, who knows.
The point is, that's just how I've been feeling and I wanted to know if anyone else has been experiencing the same or similar feelings.
LexRodent
Idk if I have feel the same (I mean the exact same), but I get a lot of the stuff you mentioned.
I've also been doing music music for a long time, but I've never had big dreams about it, maybe because I know I'm not even close to be outstanding.
I also make music for myself (as some sort of self therapy) to express things words can't. Validation isn't very important to me either, I take criticism as an opportunity to learn from others.
It is hard for everyone to make a living on any art expression, most of the times, the ones with the right connections get the chances regardless of talent or work quality.
Things on life are as they are, the only thing that can be on our control (most of the time at least) is one self, there is not a better choice than keep doing our thing and see how it turns out.
Keep going man, there's still plenty of time for you, I think you have a better chance of making it than a lot of us, the underdogs.
ForgottenDawn
I think it's unfair to a lot of people, the underdogs, if I ever become "successful". Cause I've learned a lot from them, and sure, maybe some of them aren't even dreaming of status and what-not, but I know there must be some people that take it as a life endeavor, and I truly respect that. I respect people for having dreams and ambitions, no matter how big they are, I think anything is possible if it's within our reach.
It's just that feeling coming back every once in a while, more often than not. Stagnation, indifference, apathy, believing that nothing ever truly changes. Am I impatient?